True Love

2 John

Short book again.

Every time I start these posts with "Why am I doing this?"

I feel I should try reading all the Bible and putting my mind to it in pursuit of God. There's nothing wrong with trying to see if God exists, right? I mean, maybe there is. But if his word is so great, then maybe I can glean stuff from it. And I've decided since I struggle to commit to actually reading the Bible that I will write this blog to force myself to do so and read it backwards... starting with the New Testament may gave me momentum to make it through.

This second epistle was sent to a woman of the church and John encourages with the truth.

This verse stuck out to me:

"I ask that we love one another. ⁶And this is love: that we walk in obedience to his commands. As you have heard from the beginning, his command is that you walk in love."

Love and truth go hand in hand.

And John implores us to look out for those that will deceive us from love and that you are not to run ahead of God's commandment of love but walk in it. Try not to control your life so much, but be at ease. If you try to control everything you'll realize: it's an impossible feat. If God truly exists then he would be better at ordering your life as well as taking care of it. If God exists then he would know every hair that's on your head, every memory you've forgotten, and would have a great deal more compassion for you than you have for yourself. God won't abandon his love for you even if you decide to cage yourself from him. He's set the cage free for a price and now you can decide whether you want that freedom or if you'd like to stay in the cage a little longer, or even go back to it.

That's how I'm perceiving God lately.

Love is undeniable. You can betray yourself into thinking you're not good enough for love or from knowing what you truly love. Love is the greatest depth of all. It is endless, infinite, and continues to grow and is a commitment that can't be broken. Of course we as humans with all our glamorous imperfections and hysteria fall short of love, but if God exists he is capable to keep loving you no matter what. If God exists he wouldn't be able to deny love, for love extends into infinity. No matter what he loves you. No matter how hard you are on yourself, no matter what you've done, no matter what. I do think we can fool ourselves into thinking he is an evil genius or fool ourselves into believing we are the rulers... when in fact death rules over us. If we believe ourselves into supreme Gods then we blind ourselves of eternity because we are incapable of eternity on our own.

Truth. Truth is absolute. It is undeniable. It's not questionable and it's powerful, almost too powerful. If truth is subjective to the thinker than their perspective is limited. Most human thinking is subjective truth. If there is a God his truth would be absolute and undeniable. We can lean on our subjective truth; we are allowed to do so. It can guide you quite well even in replacement of God.

But if God does in fact exist... his truth would always be superior to yours which is limited to you, your perspective of the world, your identity, your existence on Earth's timeline, and so on and so forth.

So God is absolute truth. He is all knowing. Superior in wisdom. Beyond the confines of space and time and energy. He is also absolute love. Fixed love for you and also ever expanding.

True love would be such of only a God.

Human love is imperfect and must be refined constantly in order to direct it, harness it, and flourish in it. If we stand on human love alone we end up with warped, disfigured hearts. Hearts that we make of our own choosing that end up trying to exist in some diminished shape.

I read a quote not too long ago that's stuck with me: "If you don't follow your dreams, nightmares will find you."

Everyone has distinct dreams attached to their hearts that were placed there. When we deny those dreams our hearts end up becoming a new shape not of our own. We are not meant to be carpenter's of our hearts. We are to live and be free with what our heart is ticking at us daily. Not everyone wants to sing, dance, count, think, enjoy, paint, write, etc. Certain talents are unique to you and make your identity.

If God doesn't exist we are inevitable to warped shaped hearts, broken and glued back together with whatever we can find. If God does exist... our hearts may have a bit more of a chance.